Greetings and Salutations,
I’m not going to lie to you…it took everything for me to
write a newsletter but I owed you all one and I promised Gina Torino. (What up G-Unit?!) So here we go…
It’s summer time so that means I have Brooklyn here with me,
the temperature is burning people up more than a hooker on Sprague Street (Shreveportian
phrase…you guys are smart you can get what it means), and…uh…well that’s about
it. Working hard on a couple of projects
like weight loss, podcasts (maybe this fall), and career advancement not to
mention promoting IDLE of the Peach’s “reunion” show on July 19th in
Shreveport at Bear’s at 10 pm CDT. ( Yeah, I did just make that a quick
promotion, didn’t I?) Did I mention I
would be there in Shreveport for the show…just saying. Lol
Oh and if you don’t have the app, Glide…GET IT! I’m pretty much addicted to this video text
messaging app and you all don’t use it enough.
Download it today! (Glide is not
paying me for this endorsement…although they should…this is only my opinion)
Shout Out goes to the best person I know to give it to my
daughter…Brooklyn Butler. She is keeping
me together more than she could possibly imagine. I love that little girl!!!
Take it one day at a time…
Hmm…yeah that’s a saying I've been hearing for most of
life. And for most of my life I have
ignored it. I mean seriously. How else do you live life? You can’t do a
week a time. I can’t fast forward to
March 29, 2015! (The date of WrestleMania 31) The phrase is just stupid. And then it’s spoken at the times when you
need the most help. When you are dealing
with substance addiction…when you are getting over a heartbreak or loss…or in
my case when you are unbelievably depressed and you just want to lay down
and not get up. So, yes…I’m hearing this phrase a lot these
days.
Now I will spare you on how this seems like an annual thing,
how I feel like I can’t get my life together, or how I feel so absolutely all
alone because honestly I don’t want to talk about it. Yes, I’m aware that I’m writing about it but
trust me, it’s not for my benefit or for sympathy. (Please don’t sympathize) I would much rather just stop talking to
people and sit in a dark room, watching TV, listening to Boyz II Men’s
rendition of “Can You Stand the Rain”, and eating cheesecake (preferably strawberry
cheesecake)…or honestly…WORSE. But I
can’t. I have my daughter here. I make her lunch for summer camp. I teach her wrestling moves (as I train her
to be a future WWE Divas’ Champion) plus I know others go through this and need
to know that this feeling is common. But
believe me. I debated for days whether
or not if I was going to even share my feelings like this or do another
newsletter period. I’m so tired…*sigh*
but I digress.
Take it one day at a time…
Is that really possible? Seriously, can it be done? Life is filled with preparing for the future. High School, College, Advance Degrees, Kids,
Marriage, Relationships, Space Travel, Technology, Medicine, Careers, Training,
Weight Loss, Weight Gain, Apes eventually taking over the Earth…everything is
looking at the future. Whether it’s
tomorrow or 20 years from now no one can take one day at a time. For people who obsess about things like me
how can you shut down your mind to take one day at a time? How can you inhale and exhale long enough to
keep your thoughts from killing you. Yes
I said the “K” word. Hey it does kill
you in one way or another. It kills your
relationships with people. It kills your
mind, your spirit, your soul, and your confidence. It takes years off your life because it causes you to not sleep, sleep too much, eat
too much, not eat, drug abuse, alcohol abuse, high blood pressure, heart disease,
or you just plain kill yourself. Hey I’m not saying I’m going to do it. I’m just saying it happens. Ask the cast of Rizzoli and Isles. It’s real!
Okay I guess cut to the chase and
stop the rambling. It is impossible to
take one day at a time. Stop telling
people that. Stop saying it. Stop believing it. Get that phrase completely
out of your head. It’s as real as trolls
riding unicorns that shoot rainbows out of their ass that are in route to have
tea with the Tooth Fairy and the Easter Bunny.
All you can do is not let it consume you. (Now I have no idea how to do
that otherwise I wouldn't be writing this) Don’t let that monster wreak havoc
on your life. Don’t let it stop you from
doing what you want. It may slow you
down. You may recognize that some people
can’t deal with what you’re going through.
You may gain some weight (God I hope not!) But don’t let it kill
you. What it does to me…only time will
tell.
But those are just my thoughts…right
or wrong…just what I’m feeling at the time!!!
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