The Damn Newsletter: I thought I was the A$$hole, I guess it's rubbing off...

Greetings and Salutations,

Newsletter time...and people I gotta a lot to say!!!!

This week as some of you know who follow me on social media (which is most of you) I was in Chicago this week for work.  It was my first time visiting the Windy City and I have a few takeaways from this visit.

1. It was cold...very very cold there.  
2. The food was amazing and I didn't even get to go to all the places I wanted to go.
3. Some of the people that I met there are some of the craziest people ever...but the coolest I would hang with you anytime crazy...(more on that in a bit)
4. And finally it was cold...very very very COLD!!!! It needs to be said again.  Seriously I don't know how you all do it.   

I have been extremely busy but it has come to my attention that I owe you all a lot of things.  First, I need to give you some details of when I went MIA for a bit and shut down production on a lot of things I was working on. That's coming soon.  Secondly I want to do a 3 part series on love and relationships inspired by a talk I had with my sister.  That probably won't come to you all until next year.  Not to mention more Tell'em Why You Mad Mondays, more Damn Newsletters, playing around with the idea of a podcast, and of course everyone's end of the year favorite The Damn Awards.  As you can tell a lot to do.  But I'm working on it.  

This issue's Shout Out goes to LaDetrah Muller.  She's a person I've worked with for a while but never met. She showed me a lot of love out in Chicago while I was working out there this week.  LaDetrah has a very engaging personality, say what she feels when she feels like saying it, and is very good good at what she does...I know sounds very familiar huh? Maybe that's why we get along so well.  LaDetrah...thanks again!

So to paraphrase Nas's verse on the song, " We Major"(a Kanye West song) , I wanted to write a newsletter but I ain't know what to write.  First line should it be about me venting or lashing out of spite? Motivating people or persuading others to do what's right? Both flows would be nice.  What should this be about? Should I freestyle or write? Finally I decided what y'all want is the classic Damn Newsletter...just type what I feel.  So here goes...

Fuck it all!!!! Yep, that's how I am starting this.  Fuck it all.  Okay, maybe I need to give you all a little more than that.  Not even considering the year I had, but the last 3 weeks have been anything less than a picnic for me.  One of my most trusted people tell me lie after lie; another trusted person mixed lies, drama, and just talking out their ass to me (especially when they have had a couple) into this ball of bullshit; I have some disingenuous people giving me Spam and calling it steak (if I can't quote a newsletter from the past); and peers in the industry which I work in are praying for my downfall.  (And it ain't a silent prayer...it's one of those Deacon Jones devotion prayers that the whole church hears)

So since I've been told that I can't give up or isolate myself (remember that upcoming newsletter about me being MIA...yeah that goes with that)  I have been instructed by my sister Jordan to figure out what I have learned from all of this and change said behavior.  Good advice sis.  So here's what I am going to do to make myself better.

Be more like Kanye West!!!! 

Nope I'm not joking.  

I'm dead ass serious!

I was in Chicago....and this philosophy was staring me in the face.  Here's how I'm gonna do it.  See the A$$hole...be the A$$hole!!! I mean Kanye doesn't give a rat's ass what people think of him.  He says what he says and does what he does.  He trust his talents and if people like it...great, if they don't...screw them!  Why didn't I think of that?! Oh I know because I was busy being Mr. Nice Guy or as most of my friends call me..."Captain Save-a-Hoe" (Although I don't know many hoes so...uh...yeah I don't know).  Call me whatever.  The Ultimate Team Player, The Super Hero without any super powers, a sucker...whatever it is I'm done.  I'm honest with myself.  (Hell I'm the first one to call my damn self a hypocrite because I really am) I know what I am good at and I know what I suck at. But I have always done what's best for business even if it meant doubting my progress and suppressing my will to succeed.  Honestly I just didn't want to become the a-hole that I figured I was genetically disposed to become (You know EXACTLY what I mean by that) At this point what's the damn deal? People will remember you or they won't.  You will be revered as a success or mocked as being a failure by any one...the most important person is you.  Now I have never been the person to always love myself but what I have been is a person that has wanted others to love me.  THAT ENDS NOW. Consider this my "Kiss my ass" declaration.  Hey I can't argue with results...nice guys finish last.  Think of the success of Kanye West.  But I'm not just basing it off of just his career.  Look at...

CM Punk

Longest reigning WWE Champion in the last 25 years

Al Capone

Most notorious Gangster of all time

Red Foxx

One of the greatest Comedians ever

Interestingly enough...all outspoken...all from Chicago (Technically Kanye was born in Atlanta but that actually proves my point more...you know because that's where I live)...

But those are just my thoughts...right or wrong...just what I was feeling at the time!!!