Greetings and Salutations,
Your social media super hero is back.
This is kind of a Damn Newsletter. I’m really contemplating bringing it back. But possibly a different format. Maybe creating a website. Writing because I want to get it out. Not because I am trying my damnest to create what you want so I can get more views and comments. I like the principles but I just need to apply it. Stay with me. You should know how my mind works at this point. (and for some of you that don’t…boy are you in for a ride. I’m talking about eating a Golden Corral buffet and riding the Superman ride at Six Flags type of ride)
As far as how I am doing…well it’s been a rough year. Much like last year. In some ways better…in some ways worse. Didn't want to rain on your parade so I didn't bother most of you with that. It may change as I continue to write. Hell I may just ignore it all together. Only God knows at this point.
Shout Out (of the day…week…month…I don’t really know it’s been so long since I did one of these) goes out to TaWanna Bennett Winn. As you can see our talked helped. Look at me writing. I’m thinking about what you said. Well see if I can stick to it. Since it’s been a while and I have did much shouting out I will make an exception and give it to more than just one…but it is close to The Damn Awards so I will wait.
For a lifetime I have been burned believing the hype of what I thought was not only facts but gospel truths.
• My father could do no wrong.
• Wrestling was as pre-determined as my life.
• People who I considered my best friends would always have my best interest at heart.
• And the biggest lie of them all, romantic comedies are based on real life. (I really thought that shit could happen! *shrug*)
Because I have faced these paradigms as well as others to be pure flimflam, that thought process slowly started seeping into other parts of my life that didn't necessary need it. I found myself not believing the hype on mostly everything.
• My daughter doesn't love me per se but more so the idea of having a dad.
• Although the people around me believe in me and my abilities, I have significant doubts.
• Not trusting that people who say they love me actually do because they are only saying that or I will find a way to change their mind
If you’re reading this…especially if you really know me and just can’t believe that I think like that well…surprise! It’s the truth. Now honestly I am a logical thinker and those thoughts honestly don’t seem likely. However I am a logical thinker, so without out proof I couldn't ever rule them out. Yeah I said it…proof. Can’t really prove opinions and emotions (which are clearly what they are) with proof to be credible or complete fallacies. So what do you do? How do you get away from that brand of thinking that is obviously and utterly unhealthy? You believe the hype!
You have to change your way of thinking completely from what you have been taught. You start inward and move outward. It starts with you. You believe your daughter does love you and you set out to solidify that love by being the best dad you can be. You trust that if people believe in you and your abilities they all can’t be wrong (well they could but…damn it…sorry changing your thought process is hard). You prove them right by having confidence that anything that comes across your plate, you knock it out of the park! (and in my case…talk a little shit about it!) And believe that if people tell you that love you (despite you continuously asking them why they do and no one ever gives you a good enough reason…trust me), that it must be something to it and you start loving yourself. You start with those 3 things got damn it! And maybe if you do, you’ll start believing the hype!!!
Those are just my thoughts…right or wrong…just what I was feeling at the time.
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